It's December already; first day of the month. Time's ticking away, so bloody fast. It's gon` be the end of one year, like again. I still remember celebrating xmaz & counting down for 2009. All these seemed so yesterday. So fast, I'll be doing those countdowns all over again. Suddenly I feel everything going on&on at an extremely fast pace. So much so that I can no longer catch up with it.


Talking about time, my results will be released in another 3 days time?! How deadful. Ive been whining a whole lot about 03 Dec, zz. A part of me wants to know my results asap, so that I can get over with it soon. It's causing me insomnia for the past couple of days. The other part of me doesn't want to get my results, Im afraid the resuls would be negative. Most prolly so, I have the least confidence in all my papers. ):


Ive been preparing for the worst. Thinking of what am I gon` do if I were to fail any of the papers. Ive been pondering really hard, seriously.

1) To repeat the module. (I don't want to!)
2) To rest for a year. (Unlikely so.)
3) To quit school. (Maybe?)


All the above has got its pros & cons. Im caught in this deep shite. Received helloads of advices, I really appreciate it alot. (:


I don't want to fail any of the modules, who wants anyway?! But I've got this really great hunch that it's so screwed ttm. It's so demoralizing, pleaseeeee. I studied like weeks in advance for the goddamn majors, intensive mugging day & night. Still, ended up screwing the papers. Like whatthefuck? Demoralizing right. Moreover, I heard that the first semester is the simplest & slackest(?). & what now, I can't even manage/cope. How am I supposed to continue surviving for the subsequent semesters?! ): Each time I think about my results, I feel like crying maaaan. Damnit, stress ttm please. You don't understand, & you'll never will...

Im as busy as a bee. Vacation has been so packed. Busy with work, busy with peopleilove, busy with every single little thing. I hardly have the time to even sit in front of my lappy. By the time I get back home from work, I would have been so physically + mentally drained. Conked out as early as 1030pm. Early bird catches the worm first, yes?. & when I've got no work, I'd be out. Im seldom at home. Superduper exhausting! ):


Anyway, Friday the 13th, was party session with the primaryschool peeps @ Powerhouse, yet again. The night was pretty much corkedup initially, cos our dearest Jieying forgotten to bring her IC & ezlink wasn't allowed. Like whatthehell, since when ezlink wasn't allowed?! We had to wait outside till her bf brought her IC over. & know what, we sat outside for like 3h?! OMFG?. HAHA. But well, the night still ended well. The music was fabulous + company was awesomeeeeeeeee! Lovelove (:


Im beginning to love Powerhouse, like never before. HAHA.









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Two consecutive weeks of partying. Im gon` quit partying for the time being, cos yours truly will be busy slogging her guts out for the next two weekends! OHDAMNIT, how pathetic. ):


December gon` be a busybusy month. Many birthday celebrations + wedding dinners to attend. Not to forget, Im gon` have a short getaway to the land of smileeeeees with Mommy! Im sosososo gon` shop till I drop. I can't wait, please! On a heavier note, results will be out in another 2 weeks time, which is also in Decemeber. Goodness gracious, no confidence at all. I haven't decided what Im gon` do if I were to flung any of the papers. I fucking hate it. Can 031209 not come, zz!